I have had the strangest urge to take up knitting or crocheting. Anyone who knows me can tell you that this is decidedly not something I often consider. Ever. I am not a "crafts person". In fact, though blessed with talented Grandmas, Aunts and Mom, Mother-In-Law, Sisters-In-Laws and Friends, I have always looked on their ability to sew, scrapbook, paint and create charming knick-knacks as awesome for them and impossible for me.
I can't explain my aversion to crafty things... In fact, I have only recently developed a liking for cooking because I can be creative. I know you can be creative in crafts as well, but I just can't seem to wrap my brain around it. Nor do I really want too. Sure, It makes the house look nice and the women who can do these things are always whispered as being "accomplished", but I do not hold those cursed accomplishments. And, when it comes down to it, I'm not too disappointed by that fact.
I might end up trying knitting though. Just for something for my hands to do while I watch a movie or something. Or, I just might not. Both would be lovely.
Any whoo, sorry about that rather pointless rant. An update in the life of Jeannie (for those who care to know, and for those who don't... why are you reading this again? :D ) I am in the process of packing up my house. I have packed all of my belongings many, many, many times before. I have moved so many times that I have lost quite a few of my precious things. On the other hand, I only own a few things I really care about now. Everything else I just get rid of, cause who wants to pack that crap around?
I don't much like packing. UNpacking though. That is fun. It's like rediscovering the house and things you own. You get to find fun little places to put things. Watch your life put up on the walls and shelves, and enjoy your personality taking over a space previously occupied by someone else.
Packing though.... I wish I had a Fairy Godmother to help me magic all the packing away. It would make my life easier. I'll get through it though. It seems to have taken over my life just a little. Exercising? Sorry, I'm packing. Eating healthy? Don't exactly have the time, I'm packing. Friends? "Oh! You'd like to come over? Wonderful! I need help packing."
Thank heavens it will all be over by Saturday night. I can't wait to be done and settle into my new home, with my dishwasher, washer and dryer and big bathroom.
So forgive me if I'm more scatterbrained than usual today. My house is in a jumble which seems to make my frame of mind a bit crooked.
A collection of my thoughts and experiences as I weed out all the excuses I use to inhibit myself, my goals and enjoying all that life has to offer.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Fate Had Other Plans
I felt incredibly virtuous this morning. My alarm went off to get up to go running. I hit snooze, and then gave myself a nice little pep talk about needing to get up and how happy I will be when I am done. So, I got out of bed. I stumbled around trying to find my running stuff, and was promptly stumped. I found the spandex shorts, put those on, and then searched and searched and searched. I could not find my sports bra anywhere. Seriously, it disappeared completely.
So, I make my way over to the closet. The burst of freezing cold air from our window AC unit made me decide it would be better to crawl to the closet. In front of my closet was what looked like a box. I didn't have my glasses on so I couldn't be sure. (Some background information: My husband will often leave gifts in front of my closet door for birthdays, valentines day and sometimes just because he loves me). Well I moved the box out of the way without looking at it as I was.... well, to be honestly I didn't have much clothing on and the AC was killing me.
So I decided to retreat back to the dresser to find a shirt before continuing the search. It seems that though I was determined to go running, Fate had other ideas. As I was trying to find a shirt to throw on, amid much shivering, Stephen sat up in bed and said, "Do you have any idea what that thing you just moved in front of the closet was?"
I looked up a little guiltily. Stephen is a fantastic giver of gifts, but he does expect his gifts to be met with a certain amount of enthusiasm.
So, I make my way over to the closet. The burst of freezing cold air from our window AC unit made me decide it would be better to crawl to the closet. In front of my closet was what looked like a box. I didn't have my glasses on so I couldn't be sure. (Some background information: My husband will often leave gifts in front of my closet door for birthdays, valentines day and sometimes just because he loves me). Well I moved the box out of the way without looking at it as I was.... well, to be honestly I didn't have much clothing on and the AC was killing me.
So I decided to retreat back to the dresser to find a shirt before continuing the search. It seems that though I was determined to go running, Fate had other ideas. As I was trying to find a shirt to throw on, amid much shivering, Stephen sat up in bed and said, "Do you have any idea what that thing you just moved in front of the closet was?"
I looked up a little guiltily. Stephen is a fantastic giver of gifts, but he does expect his gifts to be met with a certain amount of enthusiasm.
I looked up a little guiltily. Stephen is a fantastic giver of gifts, but he does expect his gifts to be met with a certain amount of enthusiasm.
This isn’t really hard because I am usually incredibly enthusiastic about his gifts. But I knew I had made a serious blunder from the look on his face.
“Um… kinda. Sorry, I don’t have my glasses on, or a shirt on! I’m cold and I was going to get my glasses to see what it is.” I felt like I had just told a little kid that Santa wasn’t real.
I bounded over to the box, picked it up and jumped onto the bed. It was a Kindle! * gasp * I immediately went to work trying to get it open. I just wanted to touch it. I look over at my husband.
“I thought you would have come and jumped on me as soon as you saw it or something.” Oops. I wasn’t being as grateful as I should be. I then told him how awesome it was. I enthused and told him how incredibly excited I was. Because, I was sooooooo excited! SO EXCITED!
As a lover of books, as a student as someone who just wants to have a houseful of books, a Kindle is a way to keep from having to move 2 tons of books every time we have to relocate.
It is the perfect gift for me.
We both go the box opened and started exploring it. Giddy with how it really does look just like ink on a real page. We got it charging, looked online at some of the books I wanted, and I continued to try and thank my amazing husband for this awesome gift.
When we settled down, I looked around again (this time with my glasses on and therefore a higher chance of success) and still no sports bra. So, as a thank you to my wonderful husband we got to do what we never get to do in the morning: Cuddle. (and you thought it was going to be something dirty! Shame on you.)
I am so very blessed to have an amazing husband who could have taken the money that he spent getting me a Kindle getting himself a nice gun (something he has wanted for ages). And, you know what the amazing part of this is? I did not deserve anything.
Lately, I have not exactly been the most pleasant person. The past two days I have been irritable, grumpy, tired and quite rude. But, my dear husband has taken it like a champ. Even last night when I rip into him for no good reason, he listened. He told me he was so sorry I felt that way. He talked me down from my temper, and up from the depths of despair.
Last night, he went grocery shopping because I was much, much, much too tired to go. Not only did he go grocery shopping, but he came home with one of the best gifts ever! I told you I am spoiled. He gives me gifts when I least deserve them.
So, thank you Stephen. Thank all the powers that be that you found me, chose me and actually want to stick with me (crazy though I may be). I am so happy that he is mine for always and forever!
And thank you everyone else for putting up with this rather mushy ending. All I can say is… I am a very lucky girl.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Lamest Excuses of All Times
With the help of friends, I have been compiling a list of the lamest excuses of all times. We started out with lame excuses to get out of going on dates, and it has kind of snow-balled from there. Here are some of the "best" lamest excuses we came up with:
"My goldfish has a cold, I don't want to leave him just in case this is the end."
"I was thinking about washing my hair that day, sorry"
"The ink in my printer is out. I have to change it cause I am thinking about printing something on Saturday."
"That is my designated "Sit in Silence" Day."
"I'm color blind."
" Sorry, Wednesday won't work.. I've got to go to Mexico.. it's my turn to be a drug mule.. but if I make it back alive.. Saturday would be awesome."
"I have a whole package of pencils that need sharpening."
"I'm people watching that night."
"My fortune cookie said that's it's an unlucky time for me."
"I'm considering becoming a trapeze artist. I had scheduled in my decision making time for that night."
And my personal favorite, "I have to mate socks for the homeless."
Now, I'm not saying that I have ever used one of these excuses (maybe one... once or twice) I just think they are pretty funny. I mean, come on! Haven't you ever had someone ask you out, or want to hang out and you just really, Really REALLY didn't want too. But you were pretty sure, "I don't want to hang out with out at all. Ever." is a little too honest?
I know I have. I also know that I have a tendency to not want to hurt some people's feelings. (Some. Not all. There are some people I wouldn't mind hitting with a 2X4 of hard, cold truth) I think, that when it comes to really turning someone down because you just really don't want to be with them as a friend or potential date, that they deserve a half truth.
Miss Manners of MSN.com, says that you don't have to offer an excuse. A simple, "I'm sorry, I won't be able to" should suffice. If they push for more, you should be able to politely tell them that you really won't be able to, and you appreciate the offer.
One problem, this does not deal with the horrible fact that they will probably ask you when you are free. Miss Manners gives us yet another thing to say, "You know, my schedule is really packed right now. Why don't I contact you when my schedule clears up."
Problem! I know many a persistent guy who won't realize that you are rejecting his offer of courtship. I know many a girl who won't realize you are trying to avoid her. So, what do we do? (This is when I am sincerely glad that I am married and can just tell my husband, "Babe, I just need some alone time right now, kapish? We'll cuddle later. I love you." )
So how do you deal with this problem? In my single days, I had a rule. I would go on a date with a guy once (if he didn't pose a threat to my safety in any way). After that, if he asked me out again and I really didn't want to go out with him I could just say, "You know what, I had a lot of fun with you. But I think we would be better friends. Is that cool?" And if it wasn't, I would never hear from him again and I was OK with that.
But with friends... or people who "think" they are your friend... It gets difficult. In all honesty, most of the time I just suck it up and hang out with them if they are the type that doesn't seem to have a lot of friends. But, if that person has plenty of friends and being with them makes me want poke myself repeatedly in the eye with barbeque tongs... I usually have the "I'm so sorry I am terribly busy" excuse on hand. But, I'll admit, I've given some pretty lame excuses.
It's honesty time people, what is the lamest excuse you have ever given? Or has anyone ever given you an incredibly lame excuse before?
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Can You Say, "VICTORY!"
I can. I said it on Wednesday. Loudly. I might have woken up my husband with a victory dance. I may or may not have jumped on him while he was in bed, practically shouting, "CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!" And then continued to bounce around the room in sheer joy. I just might have done something like that.
You want to know why? Because... I. Fit. Into. My. SKINNY. Jeans! (Please, feel free to cheer as loudly as you'd like). Not just any skinny jeans. The skinny jeans I bought when I was at my pre-wedding (read: I'm wearing a fitted wedding dress and have to look amazing in it), thinnest most in-shape awesomest ever. Ever. I fit into them. And I fit into them well (at least... my husband couldn't keep his hands to himself.).
Now that, my friends, is a great feeling. It was great motivation to keep up my hard work. I have gotten up early 3 out of the 5 days this week and worked out. (That's better than nothing! And next week will be even better, just you wait!) And the best part is, I am doing alright with the whole working out, eating right thing now. But I am only going to get better at it in the future. Really, because it is becoming a habit now.
One of the really important things I learned this week was, that even if I can't do the perfect work out I was planning on doing, I need to let it go and just do as much as I can. For example, I didn't wake up as early as I wanted to yesterday, but I got ready to run any ways. I realized that I didn't have enough time to go my full 2 miles. In the past, I would have just rolled over and gone back to bed and said, "Oh, can't do it. Too bad." (which is silly, I know)
Instead, I got up, got ready and hit the road. I only did just a little over 1 mile. But that 1 mile made a difference I'm sure. So, the moral of the story is, it doesn't have to be perfect to still help out and give a positive effect. I learned this from FLYlady. (www.flylady.net check it out! )
All in all, I am so happy! I know I still have a ways to go to finally reach my end goal and have my "dream body", but, at the same time, I can't remember feeling so confident in myself either. It helps that I have a husband who thinks I am beautiful and attractive. But, I am also finding that as I come to accept myself exactly as I am that I have all the confidence I need.
Of course, it helps to be confident when you're wearing skinny jeans...
Granted... I don't know how confident I would be in such bright skinny jeans as featured above... I might give it a try in a few months though. Who knows?
You want to know why? Because... I. Fit. Into. My. SKINNY. Jeans! (Please, feel free to cheer as loudly as you'd like). Not just any skinny jeans. The skinny jeans I bought when I was at my pre-wedding (read: I'm wearing a fitted wedding dress and have to look amazing in it), thinnest most in-shape awesomest ever. Ever. I fit into them. And I fit into them well (at least... my husband couldn't keep his hands to himself.).
Now that, my friends, is a great feeling. It was great motivation to keep up my hard work. I have gotten up early 3 out of the 5 days this week and worked out. (That's better than nothing! And next week will be even better, just you wait!) And the best part is, I am doing alright with the whole working out, eating right thing now. But I am only going to get better at it in the future. Really, because it is becoming a habit now.
One of the really important things I learned this week was, that even if I can't do the perfect work out I was planning on doing, I need to let it go and just do as much as I can. For example, I didn't wake up as early as I wanted to yesterday, but I got ready to run any ways. I realized that I didn't have enough time to go my full 2 miles. In the past, I would have just rolled over and gone back to bed and said, "Oh, can't do it. Too bad." (which is silly, I know)
Instead, I got up, got ready and hit the road. I only did just a little over 1 mile. But that 1 mile made a difference I'm sure. So, the moral of the story is, it doesn't have to be perfect to still help out and give a positive effect. I learned this from FLYlady. (www.flylady.net check it out! )
All in all, I am so happy! I know I still have a ways to go to finally reach my end goal and have my "dream body", but, at the same time, I can't remember feeling so confident in myself either. It helps that I have a husband who thinks I am beautiful and attractive. But, I am also finding that as I come to accept myself exactly as I am that I have all the confidence I need.
Of course, it helps to be confident when you're wearing skinny jeans...
Granted... I don't know how confident I would be in such bright skinny jeans as featured above... I might give it a try in a few months though. Who knows?
Monday, July 11, 2011
New Occupation: Seeker of Seemingly Impossible To Find Things
I guess I should start looking for the Holy Grail… because we found the perfect apartment this weekend. Seriously, talk about blessings from above, good karma and getting way more than you deserve. This place comes equipped with a Washer and Dryer, a Dish Washer, a Panty, Linen Closet, big bathroom (read an actual bathroom counter with drawers and a cupboard!!!!!) AND two bedrooms, each with a large closet.
Like I said - way more than I deserve. I am so stoked I can hardly contain my excitement. Let August 1st arrive! This is the first time I haven’t been completely dreading packing and moving.
In other news! This morning I actually got up and went running. It was awesome. The roads were pretty empty, the sun was just starting to rise and I was able to run two miles in pretty good time. I loved it.
The only weird thing was all the college kids trudging away to school at that early hour looked like they were headed to prison, or to work in the galley of a pirate ship. I kind of felt bad exuding happiness at the tranquility of the morning and my run with all the misery heading towards the hallowed halls of higher education.
However, 7:00 am runs really are worth it. Now, will somebody remind me of this tomorrow morning at 6:45 so I can be sure to get up again? Thanks a bunch!
Friday, July 8, 2011
The Great Hunt
I am apartment hunting with my sweet husband. Thankfully we aren’t looking for a permanent home yet. I don’t think our 8 month marriage could handle that quite yet. (Well, I know it would but you get the point.)
The great thing is, my husband refuses to settle! The not so great thing, there aren’t a whole lot of options in our price range, that allow pets, that aren’t settling. As we’ve looked we have some criteria that really must be in the apartment: A roof, walls, some type of flooring, working plumbing and a room big enough for our Queen Size bed. Some things that would truly be lovely: Kitchen cupboards, just a little bit of storage in the bathroom, relatively large closets and sunlight accessible windows.
Now, I have a list of things that would be so incredibly awesome, it would be like moving into a little dream house. These things include: a dishwasher, washer AND dryer (wouldn’t that be amazing?!?!?!) a second bedroom, covered parking and room for a couch, love seat AND recliner. (Hey, a girl can dream right?)
As we’ve looked we have come across apartments that manage to have quite a few of these things. But they always end up being in a neighborhood that makes me frightened to walk to my car by myself, or it has a total of 250 sq feet and managed to squish many of the required and lovely things in the tiny space.
I have a feeling that finding an apartment is going to be a little like finding the holy grail…. Or the fountain of youth…. Or the perfect pair of jeans.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Faster Than ..... Crap, Not Quite As Fast As that 60-Something Year Old Lady!
I ran my very first 5K! And, I have the keychain and t-shirt to prove it. My dear Aunt ran it with me and was a champion. I really don’t know how to go into details about the run… It was fun. There were a bunch of people cheering us on. We weren’t last (YES!) AND it was an awesome way to spend the Fourth of July.
I am so proud of myself for actually accomplishing my goal. I am going to keep running because I love it (and I really like the way it is making me look). For those who want to run a 5K, here was my secret. There were a bunch of seasoned runners around. Whenever I wanted to quit, or start walking or just wanted to start going a little faster, I would focus on a great pair of legs.
I know, that sounds funny, but I would find a woman with legs I would kill for and I would follow those legs. It’s great motivation to see what you want to be right in front of, and know that you can be that person with amazing legs if you just keep on running!
Before the 5K, I started reading about the route. You can believe me when I say that I shouted some interesting things when I came across, “The last ½ mile is an incline.” Who’s idea was it to make the LAST half mile an incline? By that point I was already breathing hard. I was really focusing on this woman’s awesome legs and I still wanted to give up. But, I conquered the incline. Take that stupid hill.
And there was one point where this 60-something year old lady totally passed me… That was rather demoralizing. But, I bolstered up my self-esteem and ran past it.
Another nice thing was, my husband had made this really cool t-shirt for me to wear that said “There is strong, there is army strong and then there is Army WIFE strong” on the back. I had people cheering me on and thanking me for our sacrifice. It was nice to know I wasn’t alone and had an entire community supporting us.
The whole experience was rather funny. My husband and I (with several of my younger siblings) camped out on the parade route. No one got much sleep. I got a total of about 3 ½ hours. I didn’t eat much the night before, or the morning of the race, and my Aunt and I had to walk a very fast mile to the starting line (we were kinda late, which is normal for me). And then we had to walk a mile and a half back to the parade route.
Needless to say, the Fourth of July was a looooong day. But it was awesome! It feels so great to accomplish things I didn’t think were possible. I’m a runner guys! Who’da thunk it?
Ok, maybe I'm not quite up to Cheetah speed quite yet. But I will be! Just you wait.
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